cowbeau:

early-seasons supernatural wanted so bad to be a horror show but refused to engage with the inherent horror of being trapped with an angry man. your father drives you back and forth across the country. your home in the shape of a car shrinks to tiny proportions; you’re never alone. it’s been months since you lived anywhere for longer than a couple weeks; you realize no one would know if you died. your father stands at the foot of the motel bed and watches your brother and you field stripping guns. he clicks the stopwatch and tells you there are things out there in the dark that want to hurt you, that will kill you if you’re not careful. more than once, you wonder if he’s one of those things. your father starts the car again and you realize that it’s just this, forever. you will never get out. you will never be anything different than what you are now. you toss your duffel bag into the trunk and get in the passenger seat. the angry man drives on.